On Monday May 14, 2012, my step-children's mother died. On Wednesday May 16, 2012, my friend Joscelyn Kirklin's seven month old son died. At first I could only think "God, no! This can't be your plan. Why would the Devil do this?" I cried and broke down trying to understand something that was not ment for me to understand.
I did not grow up believing in a heaven or a hell. I never wondered where the dead went because I always believed they went into your heart to help heal the break their death caused. I still believe that they go into your heart and heal you as no one else can, but I now think that their may be a heaven and that God may take people for a reason that may not be clear to us up front.
I think that God took Leona because he knew that KJ was going to be called home and she was such a wonderful mother and always wanted a little boy that God wanted her in heaven to make the transition for KJ easier. I know that our father in heaven never wants us to suffer, and he couldn't stand for her to suffer. There are so many plans that God has for us and the bigger picture is ususally 19" screen for us and God is looking through a 72" so he sees things that we missed.
I'm a mother but I know that the shoes I have to fill for her little girls are too big and I worry that I might fall on my face trying to be there for them. I want her to know that KJ is happy to have her their to take care of him. I hope that she rest in heaven and if heaven does happen to be on Earth as I was taught, I hope I make it there to tell her she was loved and appreciated.
